Sorry

I haven't been around much lately as I just could not bring myself to contribute to anything when I was feeling so crappy in myself. I have a lot of craft ideas to share but you will have to be patient with me for the next little while, but I promise I will get myself back to normal again soon and get some posted soon.

It will be 3 years in a fortnights time since we lost Josh and the closer it gets the worse I feel. I am not depressed as such, just sad, so very sad.

I see my son's mates getting married, having relationships, having children and although I am happy for them, I am sad for me. I know this was never meant to be Josh's destiny but it is hard to see his friends grow up and have happy full lives when he is not here doing these things too.

Topping things off for me was the fact that my boss had a heart attack a couple of weeks ago. She is fine now but WOW what a wake up call for a lot of us.

I am trying to shake off my sadness but it may take a little while. I am having a couple of days off at the end of this week so that Greg and I can go somewhere ... just the two of us, I think we both need a break away from the everyday things that life throws at us.